Had a dream where I saw many different time lines for my life, alternate “me”s if you will, displayed as two dimensional slides in a 360 degree layout, in an otherwise totally dark void, like the old slide projectors with the rotary slide trays. I had the impression I could pick a different one and continue my life on another time line. So I tried to pick one that I hadn’t screwed up quite so badly but wasn’t able to and so returned to the time line I was on.
My wife works nights, but has been on vacation and her hours, my son Raymond’s hours, and other factors are making sleep very difficult for me (which is why I ended up taking a nap yesterday afternoon). I take antihistamines for allergies this time of year, and I’ve already adapted to them which makes most over the counter sleep aids useless. I seem to have developed a tolerance to melatonin as well and it no longer seems effective. It’s hard to be productive, especially when it involves complex work as this often does, on inadequate sleep.
Became very drowsy at 4 PM. I was falling asleep at the keyboard. So rather than have keys impressed into my forehead, I opted to take a nap, something I rarely do. The phone had been dead all afternoon and I wasn’t being productive so it seemed like a good idea.
During my nap I had a dream, I had travelled to San Francisco for several weeks to participate in a project as a contractor. There were difficulties communicating back with home base, there were difficulties communicating with the people I had contracted with. I went to a meeting and didn’t have all the information I needed.
Upon wakening my head was flooded with ideas on how to solve a lot of these problems, not just for myself but for my customers here, and also for some that I’ve lost because we didn’t have a good solution in place.
This is a little different than how my vision of the original Eskimo North came to me, in it, I saw a lot of what was to come in my dreams and then created it. Here I’m just being made aware of problems and then creating solutions consciously upon awakening, although recently I had also had dreams of the former kind.
It is good, I feel a renewed sense of direction, energy, conviction. It’s going to involve a lot of learning, and so did the original Eskimo. I’m a little worried about communicating too much of the details before it is at least somewhat implemented.
Today’s Our Daily Bread Bible verses.
And who can’t identify with this? Everybody likes to think the other persons sins are greater. This is one of Satan’s favorite lies. I find it easy to be judgemental of others even though my own sins are great. Remembering when God lifted a huge burden off of my shoulders with his forgiveness helps me remember it isn’t my role to judge others, but God’s. That’s not always easy as my nature tends to be rather cynical and intolerant at times, actually more often than not, especially when it comes to people in positions of authority. And I know this isn’t right but it’s a constant struggle I deal with.
9 And he spake this parable unto certain which trusted in themselves that they were righteous, and despised others:
10 Two men went up into the temple to pray; the one a Pharisee, and the other a publican.
11 The Pharisee stood and prayed thus with himself, God, I thank thee, that I am not as other men are, extortioners, unjust, adulterers, or even as this publican.
12 I fast twice in the week, I give tithes of all that I possess.
13 And the publican, standing afar off, would not lift up so much as his eyes unto heaven, but smote upon his breast, saying, God be merciful to me a sinner.
14 I tell you, this man went down to his house justified rather than the other: for every one that exalteth himself shall be abased; and he that humbleth himself shall be exalted.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=O_oeJgnkvmI
Man, it’s a sweltering 57.9ºF here. I’m just burning up.
Anybody remember the Twilight Zone episode Midnight Sun? The Earth’s orbit had somehow gotten perturbed and the Earth was slowly spiralling into the Sun. The writers were way ahead of the game when it came to Global Warming. The fun thing about the episode was it’s exploration of the social reaction. Somehow I envision it would be a lot more chaotic and hostile than it was in that episode even though it did have it’s hostile characters.
I’ve had dreams where it’s gotten very hot, like in that episode, except the Earth was so populated people outside were standing nearly shoulder to shoulder all dripping in sweat. Reminds me a bit of a warehouse job I had one summer.
One thing I think will come as we get off of fossil fuels and onto renewables is a renewed awareness of natures cycles and our need to adapt to them. I think this is actually a good thing because it was something our ancestors had to do and something I think we are genetically programmed to do and not doing it is actually running against our genetic nature and unhealthy.
I can’t help but wonder if dentists and meth labs ever partnered because when I was in prison I could easily tell the guys that were there for meth because most of their teeth were missing and the remainder badly damaged. Would seem like a good partnership. Plus for what most dentists charge, it ought to be criminal.
I seem to be having a bit of a personal energy crises. Part of the problem is my wife is on vacation so she is home all day every day making it difficult for me to sleep at night (she works nights and thus stays up real late) and interrupts my work constantly during the day. Times like this I really wish I had an office apart from my home. And then twits that launched the denial of service attack Saturday screwed me out of a few hours of sleep I might of otherwise had so I had to function on 3-1/2 hours that day and that’s just not enough. And when it gets cloudy like this I feel tired. Mother’s day is also hard as my Mom passed away a couple of years ago. Things are also financially tight and some people have been difficult with payment, many are travelling now. I got so much work ahead of me I don’t know where to start but none of it will generate immediate income.
Was listening to this and talking about things gone by on Facebook and thought I’d share this.